From the initial point

It was very weird from my side that I was on the side of “Cuckold” community in contrast with all other people. As I have read from online blogs and posts the average man started to be interested in such kind of staff at an age of around thirty or forty, but in my case it happened very early at around 18-19 years old. I don’t know how this all happen, but this crazy idea jumped into my mind when I was in high school dating with my girlfriend, who turned out to be my wife currently. As my memory dictates this thing started bothering me and highly infected my mind that I started to hint my girlfriend about that. It started with my light hints during sex intercourse with her when I tried to include some conversations about that. I did not tell anything straight I was like: ”Imagine that we are having sex at some party and somebody accidentally is watching us and we pretend like not to see him” It started to seem like my dirty talks is exciting her much and she started to like it. I even started to add up some situations like:” Imagine that our friend Martin is entering the room and starts masturbating watching to us and what if he joins us, would you let him to bang you?” She always seemed to like those dirty conversations and looked positive. I even noticed that those talks turn her on and they eyes burn in agony of trying something new. My loved one was one year younger than me so when I graduated she still had one year to finish her studies. That time I was in Grade 13 of High School, and she was 18 years old. Sometimes she used to ask me if I know some guy from the school, because she noticed him and he seemed nice to her. I started noticing that she mentions about him very often and she even told me that they worked on some project together. I really started thinking of turning my dirty dreams into reality. I had a few full time jobs and one of them was bar tending, and I was busy on Friday and Saturday night with the work. One day I started conversation about her friend and told her that it is not quite fair that I am working on weekend nights and she is just staying at home, I suggested her to go out with her friend John, because I knew they were just friends. She seemed very shocked and asked if I meant that she can go for dating with him. I replied her that I am ok with that, and that I understand that they are just friends and she is free to do with him whatever she wants, except she falls in love with him. She agreed with that and ensured me that I am a number one boy for her and will remain the same. It was very good offer for her, because it was night of Sunday. She asked me on Wednesday if I will be working on Friday and she replied to me that Shawn invited her out after she told him about our conversation. I was very happy and felt something new in my mind and feelings. I am very sure that I looked very nervous and told her that I was happy and glad for them. She then again asked if I am OK with all that idea, and I replied her again that I am more than satisfied with that is happening right now, because I wanted her to spend a good time. As we were walking on the street I asked about their plans, she replied me that they are planning to go to the movie and just to hang out. At the same time, but a bit later I asked her if she is planning to kiss him before wishing goodnight. She asked me if that bothered me, and that her kiss depends on their date. The manner that she told that seemed to me that she definitely is going to kiss him; I was surprisingly a bit shocked.
As we were going deeper into the topic of conversation I asked if the will use her tongues to kiss him, so she replied that it will be just “Thank you for a nice night” kiss and nothing more and that it is expected and better than just simply saying “Thank you” She seemed to sound that she is seeking excuses to calm me down, nevertheless I got my opportunity to say “Please do not think that I am jealous, I just want you to spend a good time and feel no restrictions to your actions as long as you want it and as long as I am aware of your actions” She tried to calm me down again by telling that she was not going to have sex with him. I again repeated my sentence telling that I was OK with everything she wishes to do as long as I know everything she did. She looked at me with wondering eyes and asked: “Will you be all right if I fuck with him?” I continued my explanations by telling her that I would be really happy if she had fun in whatever she wants to do as long as I know about everything and I am the part of her actions” She seemed very confusing and approached me after all. In a quite while we had sex as usual and dirty talking continued which made her very horny. I asked her if she was thinking about her friend Martin right now and about the time the time they are going to spend together and she said me yes with her excited eyes full of satisfaction. I offered her to kiss me in the right way she is going to kiss her Martin when she wishes good night to him and thanks him for a nice time-spending. She made it so hard and wild that drove me crazy. I was so horny and excited that banged her hole so hardly that made her cum very fast and energized that was followed by my creamy orgasm. Whole day after which was Thursday my heart was full of blood and excitement. I was angry, excited, confused and arouses at the same time. At the same night I told her that it was bad idea to let her to go out with her friend by adding that it will drive me crazy and out of my mind admitting that she is touched by someone else. She said that it is ok with satisfied face and promised me to cancel it, but I could feel that she was a bit upset with the information. However…the beginning was already built and no one could change the divine!